Not that I have many readers lol. But yeah, I said I wouldn't date that guy again who I dated before I went out with Aaron again this year. (Caleb)

Umwell.

Aaron was all like "The spark died blah blah" and practically laughing when he said it (no idea why...he's just an idiot) and I was like fuck that I feel good to be free..i actually was happy after a break up for once! =D So then I told Caleb and he was saying "I'm so sorry about everything and I really wanted you back after I saw you with Aaron" and all that good stuff. =p So. I dated him again. And it wasn't disastrous or anything, we had fun, but by the last week of it he started spreading a rumor about my friend (the one he's in love with..I thought he got over her when he started dating me but he didn't!) because he was hurt she didn't like him and he'd gotten tired of me or something and then after I broke up with him(first time dumping the guy too...haha...I've had all my firsts with him..) he explained that he loved Mary and also me but we shouldn't be together and he couldn't get over Mary and he was just hurt by her, blah blah blah. I think he's happier now and he's realized that she isn't gonna date him. BUT anyway.

What I didn't realize at first is that one of Caleb's friends liked me while i was dating him. He liked me for about a month and then he started seriously acting like it and called me a few times and we hit it off and now I'm dating Johnathon He's pretty amazing. He's the first boyfriend I've had who was actually able to come to my house (Aaron never seemed to be able to come over, Caleb was always emo or at his mom's when I asked..=/) and we had fun=) and I think we can really last. He's a bit of a crazy paintball-weapon-loving-armyish guy but he's really sweet and funny and I don't feel stupid when I talk to him. Maybe we're opposites in some ways, but he makes me happy and I love him so..we're gewd.

God, no wonder no one reads this. It's just about all my drama and dating with some poetry and crap in between XD Anyway. If you want something more interesting: freewebs.com/randomcruddlez or myspace.com/cattyisdacoolone. =) If you want a NEW blog: http://kylasnewlife.blogspot.com/

Nose to nose,
Intimacy enclosed.
No hatred can oppose
The feelings we own.
They are ours to hold,
To share, to kindle.
Nurture the flame,
And stand by the candle.
This isn't temporary,
This is the real deal,
Because what I feel
Is what he feels,
And the love is real
When we can learn 
How to deal
With exploding emotions
And the calming of pulses.

I just remembered/ saw this one I wrote in my planner at the beginning of the school year. It's about not wanting to grow up (thats what peter pan complex is, I think I have it like not in terms of marriage and sex and all that..=) but in terms of driving and jobs and finances and owning a house and all those complicated adult things...taxes......ick...

Peter-Pan Complex
The world ahead of us:
The stunning, shimmering
Mass of mayhem and
Amassing amounts of money
Monthly; overwhelming is
The thought of a real future.